i cant believe it still hurts to just mention your names and what you people put me thru;
how you left me at that moment to mend what you've broken.
how you didnt even care a single bit about what i was feeling.
how i had no pillar of strength to hold on to apart from my girls.
how you made me cry myself to sleep every night thinking of you.
how you make me cried so hard over you each and every time i think of you.


but i'm glad that at this point of time,
i can still look back at what i've gone thru, & be proud.
cause i'm a survivor.
i might have been a crybaby.
i might have been a loser who cries all night and all day.
but i know and i'm sure that i'm coming off way more stronger now.
and i know that i can live without you people, no doubt abt it.


so perhaps, i shall thank you both.
for you have taught my heart a sense i never knew i had.
and i wish you nuthg but the best.


on a lighter note, i cleared NGT skill test with a pass today.
alhamdulillah.
i guess it was out of pure luck. the lecturer had to prompt me quite a few times.
and i think she was pretty lenient.
i think if i were to get syiqah's tester, i would have been dead.
too much urmms and uhhhs.
anyways, thank you syiqah for lending me your notebook with the notes inside.
thank you kamini for the words of advice.
and thank you rachel and jill for waiting for me.
bottomline, thank you everyone.
lovvvvve you people a whole bunch.