Dont promise me.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Yes, I'm still alive & currently still kicking. I think I've given myself enough time to grief & moan over whats happened. And I believe I've shed enough tears, perhaps more than enough. So, here I am, back in action. I'm perfectly fine, okay tipu. At least, I'm trying lar kan? Yes, you read me right. I'm still in the process of healing, both physically & mentally. Ceh, mcm phm siak aku ~ Cause for those who tak tau and wondering why I say so, I was down with fever, cough & a little bit of flu since Friday night. Tak, aku tak mandi hujan. Taktau drpd aner dtg ni kuman. But, like I said, I'm in the process of getting better. And, mentally, I'm still a little unstable. But I think I would be able to manage. So, there's nothing to worry about. Okay wait, yg worry cume saper saper jer larr kan?

Anyway, I want to thank that girl above a million times for everything that she has done for me. That Friday night, she texted asking if I would be free the next day and asked me out to Parkway to accompany her walk around. As much as I would love to, I couldnt partly cause I was sick and Boss wasn't working the Saturday. So, I texted her the next morning telling her that I couldn't make it. So, she told me she would just come down to my area to slack. I didnt think deep enough perhaps. Cause I thought she just wanted to slack and only slack. Little did I know that she came down to hear me scream my lungs off, cry my hearts out, be there for me & provide me her shoulder to cry on. Waah, I tell you, I sayang this girl so fcuking much kay. I was super touched when she told me her reasons for flying off here to meet me. So, I did my thing, cleared my hearts out. And after that heart to heart talk, she went off to meet her Sayang while I headed home. Then, at home nyer part, skip kay. Mendak (: And then at night, around 12 plus, Nur Atiqah Roslee texted me.
" Woit. Aku panic. Kau sudah ok? Baru terbaca blog kau. Kay kay. Relax. Take your time. Breathe in and out too. Im here. Just a phonecall away. Nxt week kita jln? Pergi cycling? Aite. You dont have to reply. Just assure me that you're alive & still kicking."
And the moment she received my reply, she called me up. Just to ensure that I was really okay. So, I conference with Nur Atiqah Roslee & Seri Raihanah Mohd Salleh all the way until nearly two. I tell you, I superlovee this two also laa okay. (:
Not forgetting that belo girl at Batam, who is learning some Dangduting skills, Dian Belo Farhana Adnan, thank you for the text okay. I don't sweat for him laar. Kau smbrg aje. Aku tak waste water tru that. Heeh. I swear, I'm the luckiest human being on earth to have meet these 4 girls in my life kay. Aku sumpah tak bedek, syg korg many many okay. ((:

. And yes, if this is just another one of your games. Let me tell you, I quit being the player. Cause I'm sick and tired of losing in your game. Don't go around giving people hopes, then claim you dont want to give them hopes. It totally doesnt make sense. Like contradicting siol. And right now, I totally understand how insert-name-here feels uhh kay.

Labels: Alive & Kicking.

1:02 AM much loves&kisses