Dont promise me.

Friday, July 13, 2007

never knew life would come crashing down
at this very moment when i thought
everything was fine all along.
when i thought we`ve promised to hold
throught everything togeda.

went to meet cikgu S before reporting for games day.
she said she wanted to talk to me.
dreaded going dhere to meet her cause i thought
it was another scolding. but, still dragged
myself to LR3 to meet her.
& she asked if i could spare her about 15-30 mins
cause she needed to talk to me abt sumthg serious.
told her i could & we started the talk.

she was asking me stuffs abt us & i thought
she was against it. so, didnt really told her many things.
but, she told me, she had nuthg against us.
she just wanted us to not get distracted by each other.
talked for abt 2o mins. dhen she said i can go alr.
since ive got cca & she`ve to class.
so, left & proceed on with games day.
left skul at around 6.3o after everything.
i swear games day drained out all the energy in me.

baby,
i just hope you`ll understand.
i meant well. i didnt have any intention to control
your life. all dhis while i felt ive nvr did anythg to help.
so, i thought when she asked me to advice you i thought
here`s the time for me to step up & do sumthg as yur girlfriend.
i didnt know you would get so worked up & angry about it.
im sorry. really. from the bottom of my heart.
& please stop thinking dhat youre burdening me with your
problems. cause i do want to play my part as yur girlfriend
& do sumthg to help. baby, i really hope you could change.
& be a better person. cause dhats whad your mom wants to
see you as. & i really wish i could change you into a better
person. like how i told ckg s i would try. i really hope you
would listen to me & not feel dhat im controlling your life.
cause im doing all dhis cause i care a lot about you.
i`ve known you for three years now. & i really hope,
i could at least create a change in your life.
do bear in mind dhat we are all doing all dhis cause we care
for you & we have faith in you. i know you can change dear.
stay strong. i promise i`ll be here for you.
cause i love you, alot..

till here.
take care.

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8:44 PM much loves&kisses