Dont promise me.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

you lied . you cheated .
if only you know all dhat youve
did hurt me alot . a hell lot .
seriously .

you faced problems . you needed me .
i was dhere with you for more dhan 4 hours .
i was facing problems . i needed you .
let me count how long you spent with me .
hmrrs . i guess less dhan an hour .

god . so much for the fact dhat you`ll always be dhere
for me . wadevarr laa eyh . terime kaseh bnyk2 .

if only you know . you were the only person i wanted
to be with at dhat point of time . mom & dad made
me feel fcuked up . you made me feel even worst .

you made me feel like i was invincible .
you made me feel dhat small .
you made me feel unwanted .
you made me feel as though i was nuthg .
nuthg to you . to dhat extent that, dhat piece
of uniform was much more important than me .

im tired . tired of everything .
if only you understand .
it will save all the trouble .

i said i`ll be dhere for you .
& spend my monday with you .
i meant my words . & i really did .
you said you`ll be dhere for me .
but you did the total opposite .
am i supposed to not get fcuked up ?

even if i were to meet you after dhat .
would it even make a fcuking difference ?
hell no . it would only be less dhat an hour .
so why bother ?
you called . you wanted to talk to me .
& explain everything .
whad makes you think i`ll talk to you ?
did you think twice before calling ?
i guess you should .

you said i didnt think of your feelings .
if i really didnt, i wouldnt allow you to go .
i would have forced you to follow .
at least im not self-centred .
i rather you go, i suffer . rather dhan,
you follow . & give me dhose ,
im-following-because-you-asked-me-to look .

you said, you`ve been holding back all you thoughts .
wont dont, i suggest you just let dhem out ?
blow up at me .
all because of my fcuking attitude dhat you cant stand .
tk suke, ckp uh saa .

getting back results tmr .
im prepared to get a nagging .
& a pair of panda eyes .

thanks for making me feel dhis way .
& congrats upon whad you`ve achieved .

till here .
much loves .
takkaires .

ps; syara ! maner kau ? aku rindu kau laa sia .
dayah ! aku nk " gule-gule " kau !!

7:52 PM much loves&kisses