Dont promise me.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

i dont know whads wrong with myself .
i just cant seem to stop sheding tears abt dhose things .
its just dhat, they continue flowing .
& they refuse to stop .
if only you understand how hurtful it was .
those backstabbing moments of you & her .
it hurts . real deep .
im missing my strong self so much .
i used to be dhat strong girl, who doesnt cry
as much as now . & even if i wanted to cry,
it wouldnt have been in front of so many people .
i dont want people to see me cry .
its pathetic to know dhat i cant control my tears as much
as last time .
& it hurts seing others cry because they are worried abt me .
michele, i dont want you to shed your tears for me .
it hurts me even more seing you cry for me .
im fine . or at least, i`ll try to be fine .
putting on a smile for you .
sawry to make you cry for me .
i really didnt mean to .
dhose tears shed during recess just wanted to flow
so much . you know how hurtful it is for me to see dhem .
looking at dhem, those smiles on their faces .
like as though, they did nuthg wrong .
it hurts . i believe you know how i feel .
alya, i dont need you to go confront him no more .
it doesnt make a fcuking difference anymore .
im not strong . as strong as before . just provide me
with your shoulder and your listening ears .
i`ll be fine soon .
thanks for all those moments you spent with
me . taking up so much of your time .
i know it hurts to see me cry . but, im
not strong no more . dhats the only
thing i can do .
raihanah, thanks for dhat post on your blog .
i appreciate it loads . all dhose advice and also
the gossiping moments i spend with you all the while .
the support & strength you gave me . huge thanks .
to syafiqah, nabilah, aqilah & ay-shaa,
thanks for being dhere, letting me pour
my heart out to all of you . listening to all dhose
problems i face . letting me shed dhose tears .
* nab, sawry to dirty & wet your house pillow
with my tears . it was an accident . it just started
flowing . sawry .

rachelle, be strong . even if he doesnt want you no more .
remember, theNUTS are always dhere for you . we`ll
take care of you & love you more dhan he can .

till here// one love .

10:54 AM much loves&kisses